My weekend was rather uneventful. I was sick for a big part of it, I still feel like crap now but at least it’s better than a few days ago.

Miffed
My table was to arrive yesterday; it didn’t get here on Saturday so I assumed Monday considering it was waiting at the UPS warehouse in Uniondale. I was giddy when UPS pulled up; I knew that the porch would finally begin to take shape, when the trucker moved his way up the stairs I was instantly disappointed. Kmart fucked up my order and sent me an Adirondack chair. I refused the order, called Kmart and asked what went wrong. When the chair gets back to Kmart’s warehouse I’ll be refunded for my order. I ordered the table again though, this time it was about $7 less than the previous order (thanks to Memorial Day sales). The new table is currently in route to my house, the shipping status hasn’t updated so who knows when it will get here. The thing I hate about UPS is they don’t give you an estimated arrival time, you basically have to wait for the status to say “Out for delivery”. FedEx gives you an arrival date, as well as the begin shipping date.

And speaking of FedEx…My laptop is on its way. The estimated ship date was the 25th but I got lucky and they shipped it out this morning. It’s coming from China though, and according to FedEx it will be here on Friday (May 26) at about 10:30 AM. I’m a little confused though, I’ve never heard of 3 day shipping from China, unless its being sent priority mail, something I didn’t pay for.

So either way, I’m going to assume that on Friday the table and the laptop will be here. I’m giving that a ‘general’ assumption though because I know something?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s going to happen to make the wait longer.

Patio
I went to Wal-Mart yesterday and picked up six chairs for the patio. I also made a quick stop to Path Mark Supermarket and picked up chair cushions. I didn’t get the ones from Wal-Mart because they were like $6 each and very ugly. The ones at the supermarket were $2.50 and rather cute. They fit on the chairs nicely and I’ve basically spent the last day outside enjoying them. I just can’t wait until everything comes together.

Weather = SUCKS
The weather lately has been so extremely annoying it’s unreal. I enjoyed the week of rain, I really did. I dislike all of the left over wind though. I don’t mind a nice cool breeze but when it’s gusts of wind maxing out at 35-40 MPH then it’s just uncalled for. I can’t wait until it stops being so damn gusty. Again, a nice little breeze is fine but Bella being blown over while she’s trying to balance so she can pee – is just not kosher.

Cleanliness in Krissyville
I went on a total cleaning spree this morning. My room (although fairly clean) is more like an organized mess that was driving me crazy. I’ve cleaned off my desk, I re-cleaned my closet too. I know I cleaned it out last week but I haven’t done my laundry in a week (before this morning) so there’s a lot of clothes that need to go back in there. I also cleaned out the section near my air conditioner, this way it’s one clean shot to get it out of there in a few weeks when it gets warm enough to have to put it in. It’ll only be used at night because I can totally see myself being either outside or in the living room for quite some time. I’m sure I’ll relax in bed watching TV and getting some work done but that’s at night and that’s just easier to deal with. I vacuumed, I cleaned out the kitchen and I even did some sweeping on the porch, not that it mattered considering all the damn wind put most of it back :grrr:

Computerness
I did some major cleaning out today. I got rid of about 10gigs of crap files off my computer. I burned all of my archived clients to CDs and I got rid of things I’ve been meaning to move for quite some time. I have two zip disks filled and ready to transfer over to the laptop as soon as I’m situated there. I’ve already setup the new router; it’s working like a charm. At least I think it is. The ports are fine, I’m just not sure about the wireless. The line is password protected so I don’t have to worry about someone tapping into my connection. I’ve opened up the “Shared” folders on this computer (with a password of course) so that I’m able to go back and forth and get the important files. It’s a hassle saving everything to a disk and then reloading, it’s called a NETWORK for a reason damn it.

In conclusion
I know I’m behind on all of my comment sites, but I’ve also placed myself on hiatus with them so I don’t have to deal with that right now. I don’t mind the sites but sometimes when I have to visit some teeny-bopper “Lyke…OMG!” blog it makes me want to put my fist through the screen. I’ll get around to the emails in my box when I get the energy to do it. I’ll also return the comments here when I get that energy as well. For now though, I’m going to find myself something to make for dinner and then relax in front of the TV for a little while.

I know it’s only been two days since I posted but for some reason it feels more like two weeks. It could have something to do with the constant string of storms or the fact that I’ve woken up at 7am for the last few days, only to fall asleep around 4am the following morning, I have no idea.

I’ve been very anxious the last few days; it’s kind of that weird feeling of everything coming together where I’m both excited, but sad about it too. I’m sure it makes no sense to you but that’s basically how it feels to me, and we all know I’ve never been one to make much sense anyway.

I’m extremely happy that my laptop will be here sometime in the next two weeks. I’m very happy my patio will be setup the way I’ve wanted it to be for the last three years. I’m very ticked off that people are on my case about things that don’t concern me, and I’m extremely upset that even with the good things, I don’t have Joe to share it with. I know it’s been two months, and there are few people who say “Get over it and move on.” because that’s just how my family works, but every day I wake up thinking about him and I can honestly say that time heals JACK SHIT.

I’m depressed and I don’t like being depressed. My guard is back up, to the point that I can literally say I trust absolutely no one and I’m sure that will offend some people but that’s just how I feel. I know the two people on earth/in spirit who I can trust whole heartedly but after that it’s kind of touch and go with me. Mixed signals have me confused, false senses of security have me ticked off, and nagging about stupid things makes me want to put my foot up someone?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s ass.

I’m purposely burying myself in my work so I can avoid speaking to certain people and thinking about Joe (which definitely isn’t working very well – at all). I don’t even really go on AIM anymore; I have no use for it. It’s nothing against anyone personally, I’m just not into it these days. My main focus is to make as much money as possible and put it into my savings account so it can grow faster and I can get the hell out of here or at least get me the means to do so.

That didn’t stop me tonight though. I went to Wal-Mart with my sister. It was my intent to get a nice new messenger bag for under $20 for my laptop. It had to be big enough to hold the laptop, mouse, router and other accessories. I found a really nice one, only mine is baby blue – not pink. It’s padded, it’s roomy, and it’s got so many hidden compartments that I almost pissed myself in excitement. By now, any regular visitor should know how easily amused I am; this bag was it. It wasn’t a bad deal either; $12.96 is a great deal on something like this. I was looking around for laptop bags/cases but they were all either too expensive or too gaudy. So, this works for me.

I still, however, managed to drop $100 in about a half hour. I know I shouldn’t have, but for the most part it was things that I needed. I made a mistake the last time I was there when I bought my shampoo, it wasn’t actually shampoo – I misread the label and got myself two $6 bottles of CONDITIONER so my going back to get the shampoo was important. I also treated myself to a box of cereal, for some reason I’ve been craving Kix and since they’re about $2 more in the super market, I figured Wal-Mart would have a good deal there, and they did :w00t:

I dropped about $50 on my sister, that’s the only reason why the bill came up as high as it did. She randomly threw shit into the cart and I never turned around to say “No” because I just don’t have the energy. I don’t have the energy to do ANYTHING these days, I’m just so warn out, you’d think I was coming down with a cold or something. It’s just my body finally giving up on me I guess. I’m still quick with zingers; I’m just having trouble saying “No” to people, which is why I’m so damn tired. I’m always working on something. For certain people I offer it, so I don’t mind. But the ones that don’t talk to me for six months at a time and then IM me one day with “Could you create a theme for me?” are just really getting on my nerves.

In other news, my table arrived in NJ around 2:30 this afternoon (based on UPS tracking at least) it should hopefully be here before Monday. I’m going to jump the gun and say it will show up tomorrow – but I also said I’d pick up the chairs today and I never did so who knows. It’ll get here whenever it gets here and I guess that’s all that matters. My local King Kullen Supermarket is having its Memorial Day Sale so the chairs are marked down to about $5.99 each. This means I don’t have to find a way out to East Meadow, I can just have daddy take the roof off the Jeep and we can go pick them up. I’m not getting the bench for a few weeks, its unimportant. The shades can wait too. I just want the chairs, that’s all. Besides, for the time being I can just throw the two extra chairs in the corner with my neighbors coffee table and it can easily take the place of the bench. Problem solved.

I know I’m rambling, and I’m sure I’m boring you so I’m just going to hit “Post” and shut down for the night.

I’ve been working my ass off all week. I was paid by that client, and I ordered my laptop this morning. It’s kind of funny, I’ve been waiting to have all the money together and when I finally do – I just let it sit there for a day while I thought about it.

So I logged into HP.com configured my laptop for the very last time and went through with the check out. After all of the thinking I did, I decided to go for the 15.4″ model. I know that I wanted the 17″ and part of me still does, but financially I’d prefer the 15.4″, a few years down the road I can always get myself a new laptop. For now, however, this one is exactly what I need it to be.

DV5000z
- Microsoft(R) Windows(R) XP Home Edition with SP2
- AMD Turion(TM) 64 ML-34 (1.8GHz/1MB L2 Cache)
- FREE Upgrade to 15.4″ WXGA BrightView Widescreen!!
- 128MB ATI RADEON(R) XPRESS 200M w/Hypermemory(TM)
- 1.0GB DDR SDRAM (2x512MB)
- 80 GB 5400 RPM Hard Drive
- DVD/CD-RW Combo Drive
- 54g(TM) 802.11b/g WLAN w/ 125HSM/SpeedBooster(TM)
- 12 Cell Lithium Ion Battery
- Microsoft(R) Works/Money
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Total: $1161.19

I know it doesn’t seem like much but I got a good deal on it and its also built like my desktop (only a little bit better). I totally love ♥ coupon codes too! So I’m very, very content and extremely antsy because I can’t wait to get it! The estimated ship date is May 25th, and since there’s a 5-7 business day shipping on it, I’m expecting to receive it sometime around June 1st, at the latest.

Patio Excitement
I ordered my new patio table from K-Mart, it only cost me like $50 which is fine with me considering the size. It’s about the same size as the table I have outside right now and I came up with a wonderful idea that suits my needs, and my wallet.

I’m keeping the current table I have, and then just putting this new one next to it. It’ll be like having one HUGE table and it will make working outside a lot easier. I’m almost positive I’ll have at least one child near me on a daily basis during the summer, so this way they aren’t sitting right on top of me. I’m just going to put a cover on each table and vwallah! I’m going to Wal-Mart on Friday with Alicia and Dave to pick up a few other needed items.

I’m going to get 6 chairs, a bench, and two shades. The chairs will obviously go around the table; the bench will be put off into the corner with a coffee table. It?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s Jen?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s and she wanted to throw it out but I’m going to recycle it considering its holding up well to outdoor use thus far. In a few weeks I’ll get some planters and then all is right with the world. My patio will be complete; I’ll be surrounded by flowers and loads of color, not to mention comfort. I really, really can’t wait!

I usually jump the gun and then things never happen. Knowing damn well that it’s all happening now, that’s just a damn good thing.

In any event, I have to get back to work. Now that I’m done with the corporate account, I have to get my ass in gear with the personal/misc. based accounts. It’s mainly graphics, a few word press templates, but other than that it evens out to about $300 that’s going to go towards the BBQ this summer (Yes Christie, I said it – the BBQ is ON!).

Later all!

My eyes are bothering the hell out of me today. I’ve been sitting here since 9am, with maybe 2-3 breaks, putting all of my effort into this account. I’d like to get it done as soon as possible because unfortunately I was stupid and like quadruple-booked myself. Once I’ve finished with this client I have another four to work on.

I know, “boo hoo for you, you have to work” but seriously, it’s ALL PHP, ALL DAY LONG. I’m to a point now where I’m seeing if-then statements when I close my eyes. It’s like…slot machines. “IF…THEN…FALSE”. Then when it’s like “IF…THEN….TRUE” bells go off?¢‚Ǩ¬¶SERIOUSLY!

Yea…I haven’t slept very much in the last few days, can’t you tell?

Last night was worth it though. The big storm that was SUPPOSED to come through here came through with FULL FORCE. At 3:30 this morning, I was hanging my head out the window watching the lightening shoot off like fireworks. If my camera wasn’t such a piece of shit with battery life at the moment, I would have probably snapped some ‘live-action’ shots. Don’t mind me…I love storms. I always have for some reason. Bella hid under the bed for an hour while it was rumbling outside, then she popped her head out when everything died down a bit. She spent the rest of the night sleeping under my pillows…I guess she felt safe there…who knows.

The fog right now is so thick you can slice it with a knife, which is weird considering its fairly breezy outside. I personally never thought that was possible. I thought fog was dense air due to lack of wind?¢‚Ǩ¬¶so this is all confusing to me. I’m also an idiot so who knows?

In any event, it’s almost 1:30 and I have another two hours to put in before I can get some sleep. I would pull an all nighter but my ass fell asleep hours ago so now I’m just uncomfortable…heh.

I’ve been in a very bad mood for the last couple of days; I’m not quite sure as to why. I woke up yesterday with the biggest migraine in the world, and I was so sensitive to light and sound that even Bella walking behind me was too much to deal with. It progressively got worse as the day went by. Living on the main road, all I listen to are cars and big trucks. Sure, the windows were cracked and I could have just closed them but at the same time, however, even with closed windows you can hear all the street noise. It wouldn’t have made much of a difference either way.

School/PC Shit
I’m putting money aside for school; I still owe them like $350 so I’m going to make it a point to pay that off in one lump sum. I’ll have to dip into my savings account for it, but if it means getting my degree sooner, I guess that’s all that matters. It won’t affect my laptop fund though; I do fully intend to purchase that next week when the $1500 has cleared to my bank account. If I have to hold off on my school pay off for two weeks, so be it. I’ve been waiting three years to order my laptop, and you better believe that I will. For now I’ll just continue to pay it monthly until I have one lump sum to pay them to complete the course, I’m absolutely fine with this, at least I’m still actually paying for it.

Digital Camera
I sent in the account approval forms for my digital camera on Monday. I got some freakish test-email today so I’m watching my account closely to make sure that things actually completely go through. I’m anxious about it. So far, none of the referrals have changed and I’m still at 10/10 so I’m going to assume that everything is full speed ahead (for the time being at least). They’ve changed their gifts around. Originally I was going to get the Olympus SP-350 which is 8megapixels. They have the Fuji FinePix E900 with better zoom and stats in general, so I’m going to get that one instead. It has a smaller storage card, the Olympus gives you a 25mb the Fuji gives you a 16mb. It really doesn’t matter though; I can purchase a 1GB Fuji card later on for like $25-$30, so there really is no loss there at all. I’m excited about it, so I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

Patio Woe’s continued…
So my sister and I did some more driving around the other night and of course I found the perfect set at the super market right down the street. I didn’t have to travel all over Long Island no, no, no. I just had to go down the road with the intent of picking up some freaking milk! It was my intent to get it this week, and then I decided to wait it out a bit. I’d rather keep the money aside in case any extra fee’s come up then after I’ve ordered my laptop – whatever money I have left will go to the patio. This will go towards the flowers, the table and the outdoor carpet (because the deck has really soft wood that dents easily). My total budget is $200, which I think is very reasonable considering I don’t even have to update the porch at all. For now, I’ll just throw one of the two table cloths I got off eBay on the table outside and that’ll take care of that.

I already informed the two other tenants that there would be some remodeling done on the porch this summer, one was opposed to it but fuck her I’ve got tenure. My grand parents own the building and I’ve lived here for 18 years. If I want to throw a hanging plant out there, oh fucking well for them. I let them both know that children were not to be anywhere near any pots I put out there, and I let the one in the middle know that if there is one ash or cigarette burn on the new table I’d throw her over the ledge. Both of them leave their shit all over the deck, it’s time for spring clean out, damn it.

My headache is coming back now. For some reason the pressure like changed in the room and now my ears are clogged up. I wish it would just start fucking raining already so the weather would stop being so damn annoying.

I’ll return comments later, when I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢m in a better mood.