Okay, so while I was doing some google searching today for jobs I came across a site in full dedication to the suckness that is Myspace.com. I don’t think I’ve ever laughed this hard in my entire life.

myspacesucks.8m.com

The interesting thing about this site is the fact that they go out of their way to say exactly what you’re thinking in regards to myspace.com. I almost pee’d a little for laughing so hard…and yes, I’ll admit to that.

I do wish that their shop contained more than hats, tee’s and buttons. I’m considering emailing them and requesting cups, mouse pads and other goodies to really bring attention to the tragedy that is myspace.com

Go, read, comment with your thoughts, enjoy!

I’m having quite a bit of trouble sleeping tonight so I’ve been doing some searching through google for a few things to keep me occupied. Unfortunately, I’ve come across something that I wasn’t expecting that has me a tad bit extremely pissed off!

A few months back, the Gratis Network went out of their way to email all of the users in the database telling them that their ‘new policy’ for accounts is a 90-day turn around time. This means that a user has 90 days to sign up and complete an offer, refer x amount of friends to do the same and then you have to wait it out until your account is approved. This “90 Day” email more than likely came from a company that Gratis sold their email databases to…I didn’t find this out until recently when I checked the inbox I use for freebies and there are THOUSANDS of spam emails in there because of this bull shit. But….I digress

I went out of my way to find the last 5 referrals I needed for my Digital Camera. I pushed, begged and even paid for people to complete an offer to qualify me for this camera. I figured I wouldn’t be losing anything because I have received an iPod as well as a television from this company before.

When I saw the notification stating that I qualified for cash out, I noticed small print stating that I have to print out a .PDF file, fill it out and then SNAIL MAIL it back to them. I thought “Wow, no more internet based ordering…interesting”. It took them a month and a half to approve my form. On June 27th, 2006 – they began ‘processing’ my order.

Now, in dealing with this company in the past – I figured it would be a quick two weeks and I’d have my camera. Well…I was wrong. Unfortunately, since receiving these items (over a year ago) their company has drastically gone down hill. They now have a frequently copied-and-pasted notice to anyone inquiring about when they’re going to receive their free item. At first I thought this was based on just digitalcameras.freepay.com but it turns out this is a universal message to any and everyone going through this company and is waiting on their free item.

Thank you for contacting FreePay Customer Service. Our Fulfillment Department has received your order. Once an order has been placed, it is added to a queue on a first come first served basis. We currently do not carry excess inventory in our fulfillment center therefore your product is not ordered from the manufacturer until it has been placed. Furthermore, orders are bundled together and ordered in bulk typically on a monthly basis. Therefore we are unable to provide a specific timeframe. Currently, we are experiencing delays of up to 90 days. We realize that this is beyond your normal expectation. These steps are necessary in order for us to continue to provide free products to our customers. We recognize this may further delay receipt of your product but want to assure you of our commitment to honor all legitimate orders. We apologize that further inquiries into this matter can not be processed; as there is no additional information available until your order status has changed from ?¢‚Ǩ?ìpending?¢‚Ǩ¬ù, ?¢‚Ǩ?ìprocessing?¢‚Ǩ¬ù, or ?¢‚Ǩ?ìin progress?¢‚Ǩ¬ù to ?¢‚Ǩ?ìshipped?¢‚Ǩ¬ù. Please note that our Fulfillment Department is currently processing all placed orders dating back to April 2006. We appreciate your continued patience. Sincerely, The FreePay Customer Service Team

This was the same notice that I received on my Freepay account status. However, I did not copy and paste this notice from there. I copied it from a woman’s comment on someone’s site. This comment was posted in MAY 2006.

So it’s very safe to say that there’s a 99.9% chance that I will not be receiving my camera from Gratis. The only legit company left, thus far is Offer Centric – whom has also changed a lot of shit around as well. I’m 8 referrals away from my $1800 and now the only offers they have require a deposit of a large sum of cash – sorry, it’s just not worth it. I’m working 3 jobs, I can make the $1800 in a week, so I’m done with that shit.

But, moving back to Gratis. The thing they’re really good at doing is ratifying the Terms of Service every time things seem to get ‘rough’ in regards to user feedback. They’re also very quick to place accounts on hold because someone was ‘walked through the sign up process’ or because they simply don’t wish to tell you what you did wrong. The important fact to remember would be that whether they approve you or not, they’re still being paid for every single valid referral that comes through the gratis network on every single site.

This means that Gratis has ripped off the internet community of not only millions of dollars, but of trust in general considering how quick they are to turn around and sell your email address to an outside party. They changed their name to “Freepay” to avoid the bad press now that they’re permitting sign-ups in other countries. They claim to have shipped over $14 Million in products (over the course of the last 3 years), even though the company brings in about $20-$25 million a year in revenue from users completing offers. With numbers like that, you would assume that alot more free items would be shipped out. If you started a business to prove how much you wanted to ‘pay back the community’ at least take your hand out of the cookie jar. It’s not one for them, ten for me – butt suckers.

It’s safe to say that if you’re even considering signing up for anything in relation to Gratis that you deserve to be smacked excessively with a frozen trout.

I’ll be taking mine out of the freezer momentarily.

If it weren?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢t for the fact that you guys loved me enough to click all of my Google-ads and earn me over $115.00 today, I think I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢d be beating the shit out of something right now. Maybe I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢ll gain enough revenue from ad-clicks so that I can just go out and get my own damn camera. At least I know this one will show up after I order it?¢‚Ǩ¬¶heh. I appreciate all of the clicking, it truly made my night.

I know this has happened to almost everyone but…has there been ONE song that truly makes you think about everything going on in your life?

My problem is that there are two songs right now that literally bring me to tears. I know it’s kind of stupid but with my emotional state for the last six months…I just don’t know how to deal with it any other way.

Song #1 – “Let Go” by 12 Stones

Song #2 – “Far Away” by Nickleback

I had an intense dream about Joe last night that’s got me in this funk. I’ll describe it as best I can…

I’d just gotten off work and I walked in the front door, turned the corner and then saw him sitting at the computer in the living room. It didn’t look like HIM though…I mean, it did but he was like 80lbs lighter than I remember him. The first thing he did was stand up and hug me. Now in all my previous dreams of him, he just kind of floated around me and answered my questions. I physically got to feel him in this dream and that’s probably why I’m in this funk. He went on to tell me that he wasn’t really ‘dead’ he’s just ‘living another life’. But then every question there after was kind of like a riddle. We sat there for what seemed like hours just talking about everything going on in life. What he’s doing, where he’s been…who he’s been spying on…then he went on to discuss things going on with me at the moment and for some reason I felt completely at ease. The thing is…I wasn’t really paying attention to what he was saying…I was too preoccupied with the fact that I got to actually FEEL him again. I got to look him in the eye when I told him how much I missed him and how much I love him. And for the first time in six months he actually said it back. He told me that it’s hard to miss me because he’s always around me (in some form or another) but my reason for missing him is based on the fact that I can’t physically see him there when he is. He told me that the shooting stars at night are him, the gusts of wind when I call his name are him and the knocking that I heard the night I’d found out he died was also him.

All of my questions were answered, he introduced me to someone who we were both connected to and everything at that moment just felt right. I no longer had doubts, I no longer had guilt…I felt ‘home’…I haven’t felt ‘home’ in so long…because hasn’t been with me.

I didn’t want the dream to end. I was so mad at myself for waking up but that doesn’t help the fact that ever since I woke up I’ve been a complete and total basket case. I was watching “Boy Meets World” this afternoon, it was the episode when Topanga moves away and then ‘sneaks out’ of her house to go back to Cory and then Cory goes out of his way to tell his parents what he feels is love. But all I could think about is what would I do if Joe just magically appeared at my door and it was for real…it wasn’t a dream.

The one line that sticks out the most for me right now is “‘Cause with you, I’d withstand all of hell to hold your hand” and I honestly feel this way…I just want one more day. I want to be able to look him in the eye IN REAL TIME and let him know everything.

I wish I knew what brought this on…I really do. I just feel so pathetic for feeling this way when I thought I was beginning to move on with my life.

I don’t know how much work I’m going to get done today…there’s an episode of “Drew Carey” on right now where Drew is playing the trumpet…Joe played the trumpet and anyone who’s met Joe and knows what Drew Carey looks like…they’d know he has the same ‘head bob’ so that isn’t helping me much either. I just don’t know…there are so many signs pointing to things right now that I don’t want to think about.

I’m supposed to be the one who’s sane all the time because I’m usually the one dealing with everyone else’s shit…but I can’t bring myself to get out of bed right now. I just don’t understand it. I think I’m going to go back to bed, I have no concentration at the moment.

My friend Alicia is currently in the process of planning her wedding. The date is set for November 30, 2007 but being as it’s only a little bit over a year away of course plans are already being made. She’s been looking for invitations, party favors and plenty of other wedding based stuff. I think that the invitations are probably the most important item in regards to setting the tone of the wedding. Now, I know I’m not getting married but when I get a snazzy invitation I would assume that it’s going to be a snazzy wedding, you know?

A few months ago she had to go to her future sister in-laws bridal shower. This woman is very set in her ways with extravagant items. She had a bridal registry at Bed, Bath and Beyond that was about 4 pages long. I don’t personally see the point but while we were looking around for things to get her, I came across the Table Mate. This is a product that I’ve been eying for quite some time. Ever since I bought my laptop, I’ve been using a corkboard as my ‘desk’ for stability so that I can easily maneuver my mouse and not have to sit at my actual desk day-in and day-out.

I’ve used this table at my aunts house and I have to say it’s really convenient. Being able to set it at different heights as well as bend it down for easy typing, as far as my laptop is concerned, it really worked out well. I found it to be a great thing to have around. It really can hold the weight and still slide easily as well. I wasn’t worried about being top-heavy when I went to push it back while I was getting up off the couch. I’d recommend this product to anyone looking for some convenience in their life. It is probably one of the few “As Seen on TV” items that actually holds up to what it says it’s going to do. I’d also recommend going through TVProducts4Less.com because they not only offer this product for $5 less, but you don’t have to wait 6-8 weeks in order to receive the product either…a great deal I’d say.

The big issue that has come up lately is the fact that Bella has been very timid around people. I’m not sure as to why, but it’s growing to be annoying. She’s spends hours upon hours on my lap and it makes it very difficult to get any work done because of it. I think it’d be easier for me to get things done if I owned a Table Mate. This way, she isn’t on top of my work area and she can still stay in my lap which is something she absolutely insists upon doing.

I guess I have more future purchases to make than I thought…eh?

I woke up this morning and flipped on the television. Normally, when I wake up, I like to have the news on in the background to get a general idea of what’s going on in the world. For some strange reason today I turned on News12, which is the local station for Long Island. I woke up to this story:

Missing person case turns into murder probe in Glen Cove
(08/18/06) GLEN COVE – Police are investigating a homicide in Glen Cove that started out as a missing person case.

Nassau police were first called to a house on Willada Lane Thursday afternoon. Police say it was determined that the missing person was a victim of homicide. The name of the person has not been released.

A man who was spotted outside the gated community in a blue car with Florida plates was taken into police custody. Police are continuing their investigation.

Knowing how my town works, I figured nothing would really be said about it for a little while. Until I checked into it later to find the rest of the story.

Glen Cove man accused of murdering neighbor
(08/18/06) GLEN COVE – Nassau police arrested a Glen Cove man Friday in the murder of his neighbor.

Police say 30-year-old Evan Marshall killed retired school teacher Denice Fox in her home Thursday. According to homicide investigators, Fox?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s dismembered body was found in trash bins in Marshall?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s basement and in the trunk of his car. The case began as a missing person incident after Fox?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s daughter called police to say her mother was missing.

Marshall is expected to be arraigned Saturday on second-degree murder charges.

The key item that they failed to mention (and I have the inside scoop on thanks to my pull with the GCPD) is the fact that the decapitated head of this woman was in the front seat of his car.

Yes, this raging lunatic was driving around my town with a head in his front seat.

The deceased (Denice Fox) had just recently moved into town. She literally lived here for three weeks, the paperwork for the house was just recently filed. He sliced her up. There were pieces of her in the basement garbage cans, other cans around the street, and he had a foot in the trunk. Her head – (eyes WIDE OPEN) was in the front seat. He put it in a clear plastic bag after he drained it and strapped it in the passenger seat. She lived next door to his mother. He did all of this in the basement of his mothers house.

What could possibly bring a man to do this, I’ll never know. I won’t lie, a few handfuls of people have ‘shown up dead’ in town over the last 10 years and this is always on the back of my mind. I just never understood dismemberment…I don’t think I ever will.

Meanwhile…people wonder why I want to move out of Glen Cove so badly. Sure, this could happen anywhere. But considering the fact it’s happend more times than it should have – I’d prefer to be somewhere else.

Maine is looking SOOOOO much nicer every single day.