Last Saturday we finally heard from Sean’s “brother”, while we were happy knowing that he was OK we were unhappy to hear that he’s moving to Florida to be closer to his family. His father isn’t doing too well and he’s moving down there to help out with things. With this move we were still considering moving to the house we’ve been looking into in Ohio until we found out that the complex is currently between owners and who knows how long it’s even going to be there. Most of the homes in the complex are older manufactured homes that the new owner isn’t interested in. So the price tag that was looking pretty good to us is now, more than likely, going to guadrupal in price and then be replaced with a newer home. Granted, if it were a Ritz Craft “Manhattan” model, I’d pounce on it. But as of right now we’re back to the drawing board.

I’ve been pretty bad with the money so far, I’ll admit to it. But that’s because I thought we were moving and started loading up on a few things here and there, mainly bedroom items so we had something to move with. I didn’t go crazy and invest in furniture but new linens, some shelving and other odds and ends just to get us by. We’ve decided to stay where we are for a little while and then kind of work on things from there. At this point we’re even looking into homes in the Delmarva area that meet our price range so that we can stay down here. A mortgage isn’t that hard to come by when you’ve got a good credit score, file your taxes on time and just have enough money in the bank to make the down payment. The problem is the economy right now, that mixed with the forclosure rates thanks to the monkey in D.C. – it’s only a matter of time before everyone just switches over to apartment living.

I’m not interested in that though, I want land – pretty simple request, no?

In any event, we got a phone call tonight from Sean’s “brother” and he’s going to stop in tomorrow on his way down to Florida. Supposedly he sold everything and the house they’re looking to buy comes partially/fully furnished in Florida so he’s only going with a few suitcases and moving along from there. He’s leaving at 8am which is 2 hours from now, by the time he gets here it’ll be around 4pm (I think), hopefully I’m awake depending on when I actually fall asleep this morning. I’ve been straightening up the house, Sean even surprised me and cleaned up the office quite a bit which is why I’m finally able to get over to my desktop. I’m having some issues with my laptop at the moment, I think the battery is beginning to crap out on me or something. At this point I have no idea, nor do I really care very much either.

In any event, I guess I can put in some more cleaning time before I crash for the night. The toilet hasn’t been cleaned in about three days and that’s enough to make me nauseous (yep, OCD).

For the past month or so I’ve noticed that I’m in somewhat of a funk.¬† Life is good right now so it’s not really an emotional funk, I’m just having trouble brainstorming ideas for new clients, as well as current personal projects.¬† Up until the launch of the summer season down here, Sean and I spent quite a bit of time at the beach.¬† I’m not sure what it is but there’s something about the way the waves hit the shore that spark my inspiration to astronomical levels.¬† Now, going almost every evening did have a wonderful effect on me but when you don’t go for three months you’ve lost your ability to regain that inspiration you once bottled up inside for the rainy day.¬† Right now I’m to the point of being completely drained.¬† I can literally stare at Photoshop for three hours and not come up with a damn thing.¬† I can’t even find anything online anymore because everyone has the same thing going on with their blogs.¬† Businesses are no better considering they all find a template on templatemonster or another site like that so they basically all look the same.¬† I want to come across something unique, I’ve even reverted to looking through scrapbooks to see templates that I’ve done with paper in the past in hopes to recreate them in Photoshop, but even that isn’t working out very well for me.

The remnants of tropical storm Noel are heading this way, by 2am there are going to be gusts of wind reaching the 60 MPH range and that just makes me wonder what kind of an effect that will have on the shore.¬† I quietly asked Sean if we could head down to the beach tonight so we can get back into the swing of things but he’s so bogged down with work that he has no idea if that’s even going to happen.¬† His boss sent him a major “To Do” list and he has to complete it tonight, I’m unsure of how in-depth this list is, it could just be quick corrections and he’ll have them done within the hour.

Either way it’d be nice to get out of here just to relax on the cold benches down at the shore right now.¬† I know it’s cold and extremely windy but I can fight through that with a hot cup of coffee or hot chocolate from 7-11 and just sit back and listen for a while.¬† And there’s something about the beach that strengthens our relationship as well.¬† Sure, we talk all day long but there’s always a boost of energy when we’re down at the beach that surprises us to this day.¬† We can get through all of our problems, talk things out and the only outside influence is nature.¬† It’s strange, but I don’t think we’d have it any other way.

With the upcoming move to Ohio there is a lot of unsettled emotions between the two of us.¬† It’s not anything in particular but we’ve equally been on edge about things.¬† The frustration of just wanting to get up and go, on top of not knowing if the person we’re trying to get a hold of is even OK at this point in time, let alone HOME for that matter.¬† I’m sure we’ll work through it all eventually, but things were moving along very nicely for quite some time and now they’re at a standstill, so much so that I can’t even get any work done because my concentration levels are non existent.

This sucks.

I just dragged myself into the shower in the attempt at waking myself up a little.¬† I know it’s only midnight but I’ve been doing a lot of sleeping for the last few days based on the fact that I’m not feeling very well.¬† I don’t know if stress is catching up to me or if it just has to do with the fact that aunt flo is in town but everything combined is taking it’s toll on me.

I’m in dire need of a hair cut, mine is just getting too long to handle anymore.¬† I like having long hair but when it’s down past your ass and always up in some kind of a funky bun just to keep it out of the way – it’s time for some chopping.¬† I wanted to get it done when we were up in New York last week but Betty wasn’t around and there was no way that I was going to the super fabulous Steve Allen, freaking bastard charges $160 just to dye someones hair.¬† He won’t cut hair and he makes the clients blow out their own hair.¬† He deserves nothing more than a kick in the ass, but that’s the New York charm kicking in for me.

So I’m back to searching for a reasonable place down here.¬† Sean suggested super-cuts, I almost kicked him in the shin.¬† I’ve had professionals working on my hair for 23 years, no way in hell I’m going to beauty school drop outs that only trim your hair.¬† I want style again, and I definitely need a dye job.¬† The grey is shining through and starting to get annoying.¬† So Sean already knows that I’ll be taking about $150 out of the loan money just so I can get myself feeling all nice-nice again, the issue is actually FINDING someone to do it that doesn’t require me to travel all the way back up to New York or even Jersey for that matter.

Anyone in the Delmarva area have any suggestions?¬† I’ll take anything you’ve got at this point.

We still haven’t heard from his brother, at this point we’re more concerned than anything.¬† He’s either in Florida or his phone is off in Ohio, we’ve sent him a letter and left it at that.¬† Sean says he’s the kind of guy who would probably go swimming with the phone in his pocket.¬† It’s not that he’s “careless” he just doesn’t remember sometimes.¬† This should be interesting.

Sean did some cleaning up today, he got a lot of the crap out of the middle of the room in the office so I can actually get near my desk now.¬† I haven’t been feeling well for a few days thanks to aunt flo so I haven’t gotten much done.¬† However, with my laptop being in the corner of the room that’s hard to get to thanks to the placement of the bed, instead of climbing over a king sized bed I just decided to sit down in the office.¬† It’s strange working on a full sized keyboard again, it took me a while to get used to the laptop keys, now it’s switching all over again – kind of annoying but that’s what the backspace button is for.

He’s watching Smallville so I’ve got all kinds of noise going on in the background.¬† I’m looking around for my iPod chord but am unable to locate it at the moment.¬† I really do need to charge it and load some songs onto it before we take that 8 hour drive but something tells me I’m going to have at least an extra week anyway so there’s no point in rushing anything.¬† I just need to plug in my headphones and work off the shared drive at the moment – kind of hard to concentrate on anything right now.

I came across a new company today named Godado. At first I had to do a double take because I thought it said “Go Daddy” but that may have been based on the fact that they were fresh in my mind thanks to the commercials they’re now running for their services. Godado looks to be a new affordable web hosting and domain service. They’re plans start in the $5.95 a month range, giving you 5GB of disk space and 200GB of bandwidth. It seems pretty reasonable for the price when it comes to the disk space alone but they don’t offer you very much in regards to resources on top of that. There’s a single database with the Starter package, one would assume it’s a “blog” kind of a package but I don’t know anyone using 5GB of disk space to run their blog, and I run four of them on just 2GB of space, not even close to using the 2GB at that. I like the ability to have more than one database though, I know that when it comes to WordPress you can run them all on the same one, but when you’re looking to use multiple secure database based programs, having more than one comes in handy. But even if you’re paying close to $17 a month with this company you’re only given five. I’ve seen better resources, I’m not saying that this company is bad by any means – I haven’t read any reviews on them – I’d just like to see a bit less overselling on the space and more resources for the price. MySQL/PHP is free to any server master, why not give some more resources up?