I went to blog earlier this morning and was then interrupted by a “Welcome to WordPress” message.  I’m sitting here thinking “Crap, either I was hacked or there’s some kind of database malfunction”.  Sure enough it was the database but seriously now, why did that come out of absolutely no where?  Maybe it was a sign from someone that I needed to reconsider the template that I had in my head, I really don’t know.  All I know is I’m dead set on doing something light and airy and when I did finally have the idea in my head? Someone else already did it!  I wanted to just do a simple sidebar/blog combination that didn’t take up much room but was primarily a CSS only layout with no images at all.  Why? Cause simple is always better and I can code a CSS template on my laptop while I’m on my lunch break and not totally kill my battery being as I’d only be using Notepad anyway.

It’s a gloomy day today.  We had four days of sunshine and then magically the clouds came back and now it’s just…blah…. I’ve noticed on days like this that weather really does play a factor in not only MY mood, but the over-all moods of those around me.  Everyone is coming across as really grumpy today, and it sucks!  The lack of oxygen in this place doesn’t really help either.  There really is no point in having so many windows and none of them can open.  If I ever had my own office area, the biggest requirement would be the ability to crack a window!

The past couple of months have really been hard on me.  I’ve found myself having a lot of trouble completing things that I start.  I also have this overwhelming feeling of lonliness even though I’m surrounded by friends and family who care about me and are part of my daily life.

I think my problem is that I still haven’t accepted the fact that Lu is gone.  It’s one of those things that’s haunting me and I just wish I could figure out why.  There are so many unanswered questions and that’s really what’s taking my toll on me.  I want to know what happened that night, and I know exactly who to ask because I’m confident that they had everything to do with it but I’ve kept to myself because I just don’t want to interrupt everyone else’s ability to move on.

Work is also taking it’s toll on me.  I’m tired, fidgety and smoking about a pack and half a day just to cope with everything going on, on top of the stress.  I want to have the time to sit down and do something for ME but I keep agreeing to everything else for everyone else and even blogging right now just seems out of place for me considering I’m doing it from work (which I would probably get in trouble for) but there’s absolutely nothing to do right now.  I don’t think we’ve ever been this DEAD at 6:30 before.  It was a relatively slow day, which I guess was a good thing but at the same time it’s kind of annoying when you know you’re being paid hourly to basically sit on your ass with nothing to do.

That’s probably why I’m having such a hard time lately.  While I really have no time to myself, the line of work I’m in gives me a lot of time to be quiet and THINK during the day.  To spend 9 hours a day THINKING it really begins to take it’s toll on you.

I’m rambling, I don’t even have a complete thought for an entry right now…there literally was just nothing else to do.  I just know that I’ve sat here all day wondering how I can change things on this site.  I’m sick of the premade template, and I do have some ideas floating around in my head for a new theme but I honestly don’t know when that’s going to actually turn into a physical project.  Maybe I’ll have some time this weekend.  I was thinking of doing something tonight considering Sean is watching the season finale of LOST but I was thinking of just making some Mac & Cheese and curling up outside until it was time to go to bed.  The only thing I really look forward to is FRESH AIR.  I work in a place that’s overloaded with windows, but none of them can open so there’s all kinds of ’stuffy’ going on!

In any event, there’s 20 minutes before I get to leave…maybe I’ll find something to do.

OK so I forgot to renew my domain. Thankfully a .nu is only $30 a year now as opposed to the $60 for 2 years price tag that it once was. So I thanked myself for not touching my paypal card and managed to clear the $30 registration fee. There are a lot of plans that I have with this domain, as well as the others that I own, but I honestly just don’t have the time or the care anymore. I just don’t want to let this domain, or acidgloss.net die because they were my ‘babies’ for the longest time.

I’ll say this though…with the way the economy is going and the never ending cycle of crap that I’m getting thrown at me financially…when this site does become active again – you’ll have to excuse all of the sponsored articles. Just treat it as a word of warning!

Time to head off to work.

For the past 5 days it’s been raining and it’s absolutely taking it’s toll on just about everyone I know. Now, I don’t know about you but I don’t think April is really supposed to be damp and cold. The weather lately has been so screwed up that I don’t even know what season we’re in! For a few days it reached 85*(F) now it’s down in the 40′s? Last night was so muggy and humid that I wound up cranking the air conditioner just so I could comfortably sleep.

I hate driving in the rain – no that’s not true – I hate how OTHER people drive in the rain! Ok the ground is damp it’s time to do 10mph! GET OFF THE DAMN ROAD IF YOU’RE THAT UNCOMFORTABLE!

All I want to do is wake up one morning and see the sun shining for more than just a few hours (as it did yesterday). I want everything to dry up so I can just sit outside and enjoy the nice weather. I understand the concept of April Showers brings May Flowers – HOWEVER – When said April Showers have killed your flowers, that theory goes out the damn window.

GRR @ YOU RAIN! GRR @ YOU!